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Name: Laura
Birthday: 7/10/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: Jesus. God. Holy Spirit. Journaling. Writing. Copywriting. Dancing. Singing. Pictures. America's Best Dance Crew. Compliments and Hugs. Laughing. Family Reunions. Chicago and Florida.
Expertise: Writing
Occupation: Copywriter
Industry: Other
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Member Since:
11/14/2004
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| It's amazing how capable we are of holding ourselves back.
A year ago, my life was completely different and had few similarities with the Laura Dunn of today. I can't do anything but give credit to God, honestly. That sounds so cliche, but sometimes cliches are cliche for a reason.
For one thing, I was the most negative person in the world. I hated everyone, including myself. I could see and do nothing but complain about my present circumstances. And my complaining left me little time to DO anything about it. I was surrounded by negative people who really just siphoned out my energy and once-positive/upbeat attitude.
I also really let myself go in a lot of other ways, physically, spiritually, and emotionally. It was ridic. I dressed as good as I felt about myself, which translated out to sloppiness. Ugh, it got so bad that a good friend of mine actually took me on a shopping trip to get me some appropriate clothes for work that were professional and cute, instead of an eye-sore.
Then, as I was getting ready to move to Chicago, I finally kicked out one particularly bad influence in my life. That's the moment when things LITERALLY got better. When I was finally free of him, as well as other bad sources of toxicity in my life, I felt LIGHTER and happier. Happier than I had been in a long, long time.
I joined a gym, started dressing better, surrounded myself with positive people, music, books, and movies, and started talking and submitting to God more.
Another significant thing that changed for me was finally allowing myself to think good thoughts about myself! I am naturally down on myself, so it's been a process. I did cheesy things like repeat the phrases, "I deserve to be happy," and "I want to become the best version of myself." I visualized myself becoming the things I needed and wanted to be. I also realized that I'm someone who others might just want to get to know and become friends with and it changed how I interacted with people COMPLETELY. Sounds simple but it was a tough concept for me to grasp.
I don't know why I felt the urge to write this note, except to stress the importance of doing whatever it takes to get negative influences out of your life, whether it be people or things. It sucks when huge parts of your life are tangled up with things that never had to be there in the first place.
I have a TON more to go before I am where I should be, but it feels SOOOOOOOOO so good to be progressing towards it, finally. God is so kind to me and I can't believe how blessed I am to have access to Him through prayer and Bible study, as well as fellowship with other Christians. I do NOT know what I'd do without Him and I never want to (or have to) find out. | | |
| It's amazing how capable we are of holding ourselves back.
A year ago, my life was completely different and had few similarities with the Laura Dunn of today. I can't do anything but give credit to God, honestly. That sounds so cliche, but sometimes cliches are cliche for a reason.
For one thing, I was the most negative person in the world. I hated everyone, including myself. I could see and do nothing but complain about my present circumstances. And my complaining left me little time to DO anything about it. I was surrounded by negative people who really just siphoned out my energy and once-positive/upbeat attitude.
I also really let myself go in a lot of other ways, both physically, spiritually, and emotionally. It was ridic. I dressed as good as I felt about myself, which translated out to sloppiness. Ugh, it got so bad that a good friend of mine actually took me on a shopping trip to get me some appropriate clothes for work that were professional and cute, instead of an eye-sore and bad representation to the company.
Then, as I was getting ready to move to Chicago, I finally kicked out one particularly bad influence in my life. That's the moment when things LITERALLY got better. When I was finally free of him, as well as other bad sources of toxicity in my life, I felt LIGHTER and happier. Happier than I had been in a long, long time.
I joined a gym, started dressing better, surrounded myself with positive music, books, and movies, and started talking and submitting to God more.
Another significant thing that changed for me was finally allowing myself to think good thoughts about myself! I am naturally down on myself, so it's been a process. I did cheesy things like repeat the phrases, "I deserve to be happy," and "I want to become the best version of myself." I visualized myself becoming the things I needed and wanted to be. I also realized that I'm someone who others might just want to get to know and become friends with and it changed how I interacted with people COMPLETELY. Sounds simple but it was a tough concept for me to grasp.
I don't know why I felt the urge to write this note, except to stress the importance of doing whatever it takes to get negative influences out of your life, whether it be people or things. It sucks when huge parts of your life are tangled up with things that never had to be there in the first place.
I have a TON more to go before I am where I should be, but it feels SOOOOOOOOO so good to be progressing towards it, finally. God is so kind to me and I can't believe how blessed I am to have access to Him through prayer and Bible study, as well as fellowship with other Christians. I do NOT know what I'd do without Him and I never want to (or have to) find out. | | |
| Not too long ago tonight, I was watching “My Name is Earl” on the sofa. It was the “Stole a Motorcycle” episode and there was one particularly funny part that made me laugh REALLY REALLY hard. I’m talking unattractive laugh-hard. But anyway, while this was happening, the dog (a really cute, playful, well-behaved toy poodle) looked at me strangely. I didn’t even know dogs had that ability. And everytime I took a breath from laughing, it turned away slowly, then quickly snapped his head to look at me again when my laughter picked up again. Jackson – that’s his name – looked worried for me, his newly appointed guardian. | | |
| I'm in the mood to write! Maybe get my thoughts in order. Plus it kinda gives an update to those who care.
Last night I went to a "networking party" with a friend of mine. I got to get dressed up in a cute little black dress and everything! That in itself was fun. I also drove 30 minutes to the Hard Rock Cafe in Hollywood (Florida) and though I got lost, it also helped me get a little more familiar with my new state. Haha, frustrating but God intervened when I asked Him for some help in getting there. It all worked out and I'm glad I went.
I went there, mingled, and met people in the name of "networking." I gave out several business cards and talked with a people in various occupations, including real estate. I even met a cute attorney ;) who clarified he wasn't gay and that he very much likes the ladies. (LOL that's an important thing for the guys here to clarify in Florida since most of the good looking men I've met have turned out to be gay.) He was one of many cool people that I met and it kinda helped me get more courage to start meeting and making friends here. (I've been so preoccupied with starting a new business that I've been been putting off the social aspect of my move.) One of the guys I met even asked me out, but he's a dog so it's not really all that flattering.
So, while shyness has been winning out lately, I've finally snapped outta it and am anxious to start meeting people much more now. It took me much longer to finally make an effort with people in Chicago, so I guess I'm learning from my "mistakes" much quicker :)
I'm also excited because I have a pretty permanent tan from using our waterfront apartment building and so I am no longer so pale! (I didn't inherit the darker Asian skin my mom and brother have.) I've also been pretty good about my weight and health, though I pigged out a little too much the past week, so my clothes fit better and I feel better about myself.
Other random facts include:
* A friend of mine and I are going to pray over and plan living together in a year or so.
* One of the churches I'm considering has a dance team. You'd think that would automatically eliminate all other choices, but I kinda figure the pastor and messages delivered should count more ;)
* I love g-chat! So much better than AIM or MSN. Love having Q&A with Karl and bantering with DJ, among other people who I occasionally talk with on there.
* People who get drunk in order to meet people are very sad. It's one thing if they're happy drunks or funny or something. But the ones who are obnoxious assholes are so...obnoxious. I don't understand! I met one like that last night and he was just a jerk. One of the others that I met was at least nice, but still, he had a Napoleon-Dynamite-closed-eye thing going on since drinking I guess made him tired...Not a desirable attribute in a person. Ugh. | | |
| RULES:
**Using only song names from ONE ARTIST, cleverly answer these questions.
**Title it using a song from the same artist
**Pass it on and include me
**Try not to repeat a song title
Pick Your Artist:
ABBA
Are you male or female:
She's My Kind of Girl
Describe yourself:
I Have A Dream
How do you feel about yourself:
2nd Best To None
Describe where you currently live:
Does Your Mother Know
If you could go anywhere, where would you go:
Waterloo
Your favorite form of transportation:
Another Town, Another Train
Your best friend is:
Mama Mia
Your favorite color is:
Honey, Honey
What's the weather like:
Summer Night City
Favorite time of day:
As Good As New
If your life was a t.v. show, what would it be called:
Dancing Queen
What is life to you:
Happy New Year
What is the best advice you have to give:
People Need Love
If you could change your name, what would it be:
Chiquitita
Your favorite food is:
Gimme! Gimme! Gimme!
Thought for the day:
He Is Your Brother
How I would like to die:
Eagle
My soul's present condition:
Arrival
The faults I can/can't bear:
Under Attack
My motto:
Take A Chance On Me
Final thoughts:
Knowing Me, Knowing You | | |
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